LIFE

Can i lead a normal life after Nlevel?
like able to go outing with friend.
like able to do what i like.
like able to go youth camp.
like able to attend more stuff in church and other stuff
like able to go to grandma house.(which i only can go after nlevel)
(ps i miss grandma)
like able to stay overnight at my grandma house together
like able to attend my close friends and grandma birthday party.
like able to have spare time for myself
like able to go out with cousin and aunty.
like able to attend my close cousin wedding.(i cant,because is during nlevel period)
(and i know that my cousin thinks i am selfish,but i am sorry.i have to do this.to get what i want.i have to be selfish in some ways.oh pls forgive me.i am sorry)
like able to get back on my Prac lesson
like able to play hide and seek with other kids at the other side.
like able to go back to my piano lesson.
like able to say yes to every outing.
like able to be like other kids,which have no worry
like able to make my parent proud of me for my study//(but fail)
like able to get out for 4 small walls,every day i face alone.
like able not letting my uncle and cousins,school mates looking down at me.


is hard
but i dont even think of it.
i dont even think.
i just wish i can just pass the most easy exam.like nlevel.
but i cant even pass the simple exam.
i have fail before the most SIMPLE EXAM OF ALL!
can you beileve it.
i never ever thought that i could...
nvm.

but i just hope i can pass this year.

is always nlevel this nlevel that.
life is tough
I gave up everything just to study.
i mean EVERYTHING.

hoping to pass my nlevel,is just my wish now.
just hope yeah just hope.
thats all i can think of it now.

just Hope for the better